I'm tired. I stay up late every night doing nothing, and my weekends go so fast seemingly doing stuff for everyone else, so much so that they are more stressful than relaxing. I'm feeling down because a couple of people rated my videos down on funnyordie.com which I don't understand at all because the audience reacted well and to be honest the standard of videos on funnyordie.com isn't that high anyway. And I'm super overweight, I haven't been able to get myself to get back into my exercise regime due in part to that ridiculous lack of sleep from above.
I started putting together a set list for tomorrow night, but with all of these factors, it has failed to materialise into something funny. There are some good ideas, but it's probably still a week or two away from becoming something I'd be comfortable saying on stage to make people laugh.
So I've cancelled my spot for tomorrow night. I really hate to do that, because it IS so unprofessional, and spots are so hard to come by. And I could have re-run old stuff. But I hate that, and I don't want to do it. I want to do new stuff, I want to make my stuff better, and that's what I'm going to do. Just this time I've run out of time.